Deadful passion

in the name of god the most merciful
I want to take his head on my
chest like a little boy
and enjoy his natural smell
that took my heart with passion
I wanted him to be happy
to live a normal life
be his girl
and forever
I offered him that life
but he rejected it
by his actions
he wanted to live a double
faced life,he wanted to
have me and his personal
life,with all it's drama
I tried so hard to offer him this
double faced life
but it was impossible
it's too hard to live two
different lives at a time
what kills me now
is that I see him
enjoying himself
happy wth the life he chose
trying to live it to it's potentials
but something deep down
inside him is missing
and perhaps broken
seeing him in that situation
tears me apart
he is my baby
my sweetheart
I can't help watching him
suffer
he seems like a lost child
in search of his mother
so..what is he missing?